now feeling down... dam hormones... lol... wrote a pretty depressing song after my pop called... it still hurts... after so long it still freakin hurts... why?! dam it... i wont cry anymore... i swore that i wont cry cos of him ever again... i wun give anyone the satisfaction of noeing that i cry... whats wrong wif me?! have i gone cold? the things that used to affect me no longer do... what the freakin *** is wrong?! argh.... its so dam frustrating... anyway... gonna post the little something i wrote... next post up...