I'll be in HongKong tomorrow onwards all the way to the 3rd of december.

How absolutely delightful.

Its not that I'm not excited, *okmaybeI'mnot>.<* its just that I'm not exactlt the best traveller. I don't like unfamiliar places. Lol... Its so troublesome to travel as well, with what all the luggages and all. What's more, the things one needs and is easily availed to in home may be downright bothersome to locate in another country. Haix... Oh well... It's not as if I have a choice... Darn it. = (

He patched with her.

I hate him.

I hate her.

Most of all, I hate myself.

Ihatemyselfforfeelingthisway.Ihatemyselfforhatingyou.Ihatemyselfforhatinganinnocent.

Today I was aked a very thought provoking question.

'Do you like me? As in romantically?'

I'm stunned. The worst part of the entire situation, I know not the answer. I don't know what to say. My mind is going into overdrive with all the internal arguing i'm doing; And yet, I know not what my heart is saying *liketheheartcansayanythinginthe1stplace.=.=* I need help. I have no idea what to do. I hate the way I'm feeling. I hate it that I'm in a complete lack of control. I hate it that I'm being pressed for an answer I don't have.

*Ihateitthatyoupushingmeisasignofthisjustbeingastupidcrushinsteadofitbeingtherealthingihateitthatiagreedtogotoamoviewithyou* Ihateithatyouonlysaythethingsyousaytomeusingtextmessagesandinsatantmessaging.HowcaniknowhattofellwhenIdon'tknowifthisisforreal*

Oh Abba, what should I do???

*IhateitthatIfeelsopainedwhenhesaidhehadbeenpropositioned*

I'm scared of this... development. another negative factor? The fact that I know he's an idiot. I wasn't prepared for this. Correction. Nothing could have prepared me for this. Now my screen name is even more applicable to my pathetic life. It hurts even more to stop. Help. Help. Help.